BFF

hello people....

im with my sister... feel sooOOOOO boring til make me feel like writting about my important friends... i miss them so much...

firstly....

murni nazihah and aina salleh: we have been together for quite long time...the ones that understand me better than my sister...(sorry sis)...you have the kindness , beauty, and a heart that is soo pure when its come to rescue your helpless friend like me... without you and aina , i dont even think i can even scored As in SPM...i love you girls...

haryani halim, wan zanariah, farhana fronco: Ya Allah rindu nya kat korang!!!!! rasa rindu , kenangan terlalu banyak dan sarat antara kita...rentak kita seirama ...langkah juga seiringan...antara kita, persahabatan adalah persefahaman yang di mana insan biasa tak akan faham...dalam apa jua keadaan , kita sentiasa and senantiasa bersama...ya, kita adalah kawan untuk bersuka ria, jugak kawan untuk berduka sengsara

semua jalan kita tempuhi bersama, sehingga sampai satu masa aku mengerti penangan cintanya seorang sahabat untuk sahabat nya yang lain...di kala aku kesusahan, kehilangan seseorang, kamu kamu la yang sentiasa berada untuk aku, walaupun tanpa sedar, tanpa penghargaan , bukan itu yang kalian harapkan dari aku,

yani : aku masih ingat di kala aku pengsan malam itu...terima kasih yani untuk sentiasa melihat dan menjaga aku.

nana: terima kasih kerana sanggup biar kaknis lencun kan seluar nana untuk bercerita tentang kemarahan, kebodohan dan kekalutan jiwa yang sedang melanda.

wan: terima kasih "for being positive", sentiasa segar mendengar...sentiasa berusaha memasak, menolong dan meneutralkan perasaan marah, benci, dendam kami bertiga .....hahaha...comel sungguh wan...

sungguh aku tak dapat tidur....

dyla n hanaaaa:::: babes, i love you girls so much...we are like completing each other so well, you cakap,i dengar, i cakap you ikut..hehe.... without you hanaa...i feel incomplete (in fact amir akan pelik asal aku rasa cmtu)..cos you are the one that can push me to work harder, in fact i got all those "post-mortem" broke up syndromes (jog and always jogs and etc etc) from you!!!! (thanks to you, i lose tonnes!!!)

as for you dyla, your softness is the best nature of yourself..you are the ones who lighten up our spirits anytime anywhere needed!!! thank you so much ye....

The whole netball team 2010

you all are the best!!!! we are the best cos we won gold medal!...we are not just a team, we are formed to be together, to share everything, to be friends, to work as a family....!!!! thats why we won that title! we are not just players, we are friends, bound in a name of friendship, to help each other, no matter what it takes,friendship between us comes first.

hanim n minnie:::: korang memang da best, eventhough masa perkenalan tak lama,tapi kita mcm geng sudahhhh...hahahaha...happy sgt dapat jumpa korang...sangat bertuah ada kawan2 prihatin mcm minnie and hanim...tq korang =)

as for the others, you are my friends, id remember you guys, but this is like an appreciation that i do want to acknowledge them for what they have done for me.they are among my "big pictures inside my brain". i miss them as i miss you guys...my friends..out there...

stressful

hari ni pun aku tulis lagi...
somehow i d feel my journey as student gonna be ended SOOn! but since banyak gila masalah timbul,semua nampak kabur ni for which i cant blame others walaupun others secara tak langsung tolong aku build up stressful level dalam diri.

dikala baru ingat nak cope ngan studies and do right things, having a thought that ppl will understand and try to comfort me is definitely and totally wrong, why??? cos they wont!

sebab semuanya nampak salah tu atas aku, so salah aku ke? ye salah aku, aku tengah tanggung la nih...tapi it doesnt mean that you can simply say anything....why? remember whatever mistakes that i had made , those mistake had caused me my precious 3 and haf years time ,im the one who work hard, harder, hardest to achieve on whatever i have today, so jgn judge la...

bcos whenver u judge , u has been encouraging me to build something up. So,from insecurity lead to frustration, and now come the word "depression" .


mmg blog ni aku buat untuk tulis and untuk baca sendiri dikala aku surrounded by negative enviroment. so selagi aku tak encounter benda ni, slgi ni lah aku mcm ni...
hanya kepercayaan kepada Tuhan saja lah yang memberikan aku kekuatan sampai saat ini,
semoga Allah melindungi nikmat ni sampai habis masa penghinaan ini, dan sampai habis hayat ini..Amin.

first entry ~ insecurity

insecurity is d reason why i am here, bloggin,

kenapa nak rasa mcm ni? hummm...tah la , i dont feel that im capable enuf to stand still, takleh tido..susahnya, kenapa rasa mcm ni? sebab bila dah nampak masa depan , then tetiba je kan semua benda ko nampak, ko usaha towards it dah blur ...haa...sebab tu la timbul perkataan ni dlm diri aku...org slalu ckp benda dh jadi n ada hikmah sebaliknya...tp bayangkan aku kat tgh2 ni, lost , tak tau nak buat apa , xsure nak concerntrate kat mana satu,

then insecurity leads to frustration...

down takyah kata la...alahai dunia...

"segala ujian itu Allah jadikan utk kita bersebab dan DIA berikan ujian-ujian kepada hambaNya hanyalah untuk menguji dan meningkatkan iman kita terhadapNya. hanya yang mampu tertanggung oleh kita..."

semoga aku takla frust sgt, take it easy , study comes first...